Yes, it’s no typo or lapse of insanity (I’ve always been insane) I’ve started taking a very awkward kind of bible study with some Jehovah’s witness missionaries. They arrived at my door a few weeks ago and I invited them in, discussing a litle about “God’s Plan” for the world once the evil people are gone, and they asked if they would be able to come back, and of course I obliged them with several visits. However I think these meetings will be coming to an end shortly.
The best way to describe myself is an Agnostic Atheist Theravadin Buddhist which to some may seem contradictory but I assure you it is not. I don’t have any issues about learning about the bible in a literary sense, and I actually quite enjoy listening to peoples interpretations and in some cases spin on the dogma. I am getting quite tired of not having my questions answered however, and this is why I may end communication all together.
I’ve learned exactly (according to JW’s interpretation) how God is going to take back the Earth, why He would allow such pain and suffering to go on under His watchful eye and even how one could be saved from his wrath. I’ve learned that the bible does not advocate voting, I’ve been informed by references of scripture that to celebrate Christmas is blasphemous (Which I knew before, but didn’t think it was so prevalent, how else can most Christians miss it?). The problem is that with each topic that is uncovered I have about 2-3 questions that anyone who shows up cannot answer, and I’m not looking to argue or even asking the pesky questions even apologists have issues defending. I’m asking honest well-natured questions like “Why would God create a tree of knowledge that nobody can eat from?” or “Why would God create Satan if he knew he would deceive him? In fact wouldn’t that mean God created Satan for the purpose of going against His will?”
I understand these questions are not simple (I picked some of the hardest of the bunch to post here about), but they said that they’ll have to look into them and then get back to me, and then we’d begin reading again
. So I feel I’m being lied to when the answers never come. I assume this means the answers are not in the bible, but I’m surprised I don’t get a cop-out answer such as ‘God works in mysterious ways’ which I’m not sure whether I should be grateful for or not.
It makes me wonder how anyone could fall for believing in such a fairytale if such obvious questions jump out even in such a rigorous stream-lined way of studying. I too though, feel a strange pull towards believing. Much the same way as it is to procrastinate and not doing a research paper that is due a few weeks from now. Taking the easy way out, the simple answer; “God did it.”. It would be extremely easy and even comforting to believe in the story, and the way it’s been backed up with the Christian communities it’s one heck of a story, with a very happy ending. And the best part? You don’t really have to do anything, just believe.
I think in a strange sort of way this is what I was looking for, the answer on how one can fall for such a thing as Christianity. I now see how easy of a trap it would be for those in a tough situation, whether it be a loss of a loved one, a horrible addiction (drugs, alcohol, gambling) where they lose it all. The pull would be great enough to suck you in, and the way it’s structured it’s near-impossible to get out and see reason, logic and truth.
I have a lot more to say on the topic, but it’s 11:15 and I need to get up in the morning. I have not proof-read this post so it may be riddled with errors as well, but seeing as how I don’t ever post (as everything is awaiting editing) I may just start posting everything raw, and touching it up when and if I get time. Expect updates, and a detailed breakdown of one of if not the biggest flaws see with Christianity, and I’m sure I’m not the only one who sees it, but I’ve NEVER heard it discussed before.